Friday, February 24, 2006

Exhaustion, stress, emotion overload...

sometimes it's just all too much. I can't stop thinking about my dissertation. I wake up in the middle of the night, wide awake with thoughts. I go to bed and fall asleeep (eventually) thinking about my dissertation.
People look at me and say two words and I might cry or I might laugh hysterically. What is going on??
I'm thinking about canceling my vacation getaway because I just can't relax and I'm not even looking forward to the trip. I know my friend will be terribly disappointed, but why can't I even look forward to the chance to not have to think about this all the time?
What kind of vacation is it if I am miserable and unable to stop thinking about work the entire time? (I broke up with an ex for this reason--he couldn't leave things behind --so I know it makes for an annoying vacation companion).
I think that part of the reason is that I sort of have groove going and the constant thinking keeps me energized in a weird way, but at the same time shuts down every other facet of my existence including the desire to get away.

So should I just keep on truckin' or make myself take a break? Maybe I should ask the magic 8 ball.


Seeking Solace said...

Don't cancel your vacation. It might be just the thing you need. Kind of a get a fresh perspective on things.

When I was studying for my exams for my Master’s (I was too chicken to do a thesis), my husband had the chance to go to California for training. He convinced me that I should go too so that I could relax and “calm the hell down”. I took some work with me and spent the mornings studying and the afternoons having fun. It was exactly what I needed. When I returned, I was relaxed and ready to face my three hour written and one hour oral exams!

*statgirl* said...

I've considered that as well; however, in this situation I am in a serious time crunch (see ticker at top of page)--this vacation takes away 2 weeks!! That thought almost sends me into convulsions.

Seeking Solace said...

Could you shorten the trip to a weekend?

*statgirl* said...

Good idea...but Europe is too hard to reach for just the weekend. That's why it seems like either an all out vacation or nothing. I'm leaning towards canceling the trip and booking a massage one day and maybe planning a nice dinner out one evening; but otherwise keeping the writing going.

Seeking Solace said...

Ooops, I didn't realize it was Europe! I guess I need to learn how to read!

A spa day is ALWAYS a good thing! Throw in a facial, a manicure and a pedicure and you’re all set!