sometimes it's just all too much. I can't stop thinking about my dissertation. I wake up in the middle of the night, wide awake with thoughts. I go to bed and fall asleeep (eventually) thinking about my dissertation.
People look at me and say two words and I might cry or I might laugh hysterically. What is going on??
I'm thinking about canceling my vacation getaway because I just can't relax and I'm not even looking forward to the trip. I know my friend will be terribly disappointed, but why can't I even look forward to the chance to not have to think about this all the time?
What kind of vacation is it if I am miserable and unable to stop thinking about work the entire time? (I broke up with an ex for this reason--he couldn't leave things behind --so I know it makes for an annoying vacation companion).
I think that part of the reason is that I sort of have groove going and the constant thinking keeps me energized in a weird way, but at the same time shuts down every other facet of my existence including the desire to get away.
So should I just keep on truckin' or make myself take a break? Maybe I should ask the magic 8 ball.